After taking more than a week off sick, I’m back to work today. I only wish there were three of me, but I had a pretty productive day. The Monroe wedding is DONE. Finally. Geesh, that was some serious fun- and some serious work! I know some photogs who won’t do weddings, claiming they are “too much work” and now I can understand. But I still loved every minute of it. Hard work is no deterrent for me! All told I’m guessing I spent about 30 hours on the wedding total, and that’s not counting my assistants hours (two of them) and travel expenses. I’d really like to do some fancy post-processing on some of the portraits too- but I just ran out of time and gusto for that kind of thing. I’m learning that I’m going to have to trust others to do some of this stuff for me if I want to grow this business! There is only so much time in a day, ya know.
Tomorrow I’m back to web design stuffs. I have four sites and a logo to get done as soon as possible. I’m really behind but I’m hoping I can keep my energy levels up and just bang it out. It’s making me so unhappy knowing that I’m behind, that I have such a huge bulk of work before me.
I’m burnt out on that kind of work. I hate that I am, it’s a big part of my income. But it just makes me so unhappy to have to invest so much time into each project. To not be free to be creative as I see fit. To have to sit at my computer for hours and hours and hours. To have to think so hard. No matter how hard I’ve tried this past year to figure out a schedule I’m comfortable with, to not overbook, to charge what I’m worth- I still find myself working too much, on too many projects, for too little money. Perhaps after a nice winters rest I can come back to it feeling refreshed and with a better plan in hand. Or maybe I’ll never come back to it. Since other possibilities still tempt to lure me out of my comfort zone and into a new line of work.
While it sucked to be so sick this last week, it was nice too in a way- I sat my butt down in front of my sewing machine and got Michael’s knight costume 99% done. It’s rockin’. I made the pattern myself, even. I also helped my cousin design and create her costume: she’s going to be the Egyptian Goddess Nut. I watched some tv and took the pain meds I usually deny myself so I can be alert for work. I rested my brain. Which seriously needed to happen.
I’m working late tonight, and then I’ll watch Heroes with my cousin. I got the new Christopher Paolini book: Brisingr to read myself to sleep. Tomorrow is another day. One day closer to being able to close up shop at PWD for the rest of the year and try something new. Yeehoo.
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