Refilling my Well

Since I freed myself yesterday we’ve been having all sorts of fun! Oh, and do I need it.

Last night was exciting. First, the kitties figured out how to get out of their kennel. Over and over they spilled out, with Nyx pacing the floors looking very nervous. They were so cute! They walked all over, batting at each other and sniffing our toes. The cuteness factor was off the hook. But I was as worried as Nyxxie- they are so little! I could just imagine Joey coming home from work in the dark and stepping on one. I ended up making them a new home, a box that the kitties couldn’t get out of. Which worked until about midnight when all the kitties and Nyx were so noisy and restless that I couldn’t take it anymore. Back into the kennel they went. I ended up building a wall of clothes in front of the kennel door, hoping the newborns wouldn’t be able or willing to scale it. So far, so good.

Then Mom called and said that we’d be able to see our space station crossing the sky at 9:10 pm. So I let Michael stay up with me and we went out to watch. It was neato! Michael was stoked.

Then there was the American Idol finale. Yay! My David won! And played with ZZ Top! And George Michael closed the show! I was in heaven.

Today has been fun and relaxing too. I spent a little bit of time trouncing about the net, bothered not at all by the work related guilt that has plagued me of late. I’ve been so burned out, but doing anything other than working has made my anxiety levels soar. Not today.

Then Liana and I got out the sculpey, sea shells from our trip to San Diego, and some beads and went crazy. We’re half done with Daddy’s father’s day present from Liana, and Liana created quite the sea shell city. It was really nice to spend some quality time with my little girl. It’s been too long since I’ve had the time or energy to really hang out with her. I’ve been too spread thin. It makes me all the more determined to cut some strings and spend some more time with my family, guilt free and in joy.

Now that Joe’s up I intend to take some time to read quietly in my room for a while. I’m going to visit my mom and dad a bit. And this evening Joey is going to take Liana to the doctor to have her ear looked at. During that time I’m thinking the big kids and I will watch the American Idol finale once more. They haven’t been following the show much but are both excited for the last show. They know it’s always the best!

Tomorrow I think I’ll clean out the girls room. I want to pick a project a day this weekend- we’re gearing up for a garage sale. It’s time to declutter and reorganize. I always feel alot better when the house is in order. Plus I want the space in the garage so I can set back up my photo studio. Housework is such a nice distraction for me, doesn’t take much thought and I can clear my mind of anything that is bugging.

Then tomorrow evening Valerie and I are going to go fabric shopping. I’m looking for some cute fabric and patterns for nice, airy summer dresses. I need a few, and I thought it would be cute to make me and the girls something matchy too. I want to be active but I need to do something besides web design for a bit- my sewing machine is calling to me.

I am hoping that if I take time these next few days to enjoy whatever it is that possesses me that I can get back to work soon and nail out my last few projects with gusto and BE DONE. I’ve learned the hard way that overextending myself is detrimental to the happiness and health of my entire family. I’ve talked over and over for years about how I know I need to balance things better- but I’ve never followed through. I guess it took me getting sick and burning out to formulate a real plan of action. Now I have one. Time to put it into place.