My hands are restless.
My lips miss all the action.
I feel like I’m half way there, but still deep in despair.
I quit smoking six days ago.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Day six = worst day yet. BUT! I’m still f$&cking smoke free! So F$&k off!! You hear that, f&$kers?!
*hibernates*
Liana practices on her new scooter.
Snagged this from Valerie’s flickr stream. This is what New Years Eve looked like 
Well, I’ve made it to the five day mark. I can officially say that I’ve quit smoking. I’m still not happy about it. Things don’t feel “right” yet. Tonight I fiended so badly I ate enough sugar to put me down for a diabetic style nap. I am still avoiding things that make me think of smoking- like talking on the phone, hanging out with friends, everything. My brain has begun to think of all the reasons why I shouldn’t really have to quit. I enjoy smoking! I don’t smoke that much. I don’t really want to live to be 112 anyways! And yet, I am doing this. I still feel capable of doing this. I know the pain will pass and then I’ll be free, and I want to be free. I don’t want to go back to the way things were. It’s the least I can do for myself, for my family.
Listen to her precious voice!!! She’s grown up so much since this was taped in January 2006.
Lillie, just four years ago!
Today my middle child turned 9 years old. We shopped, went out for ice cream, hung out with friends and family and then took this silly picture together. It was a great day.
In case grandma’s are wondering what Lillie and Liana spent their birthday money it broke down like:
Lillie: Nintendo DS Game (something about horses), Inline Skates and Helmet
Liana: Remote Control Tarantula, Scooter and Helmet (yes, she did get a remote controlled spider. First words when she saw it? ‘OH! I could REALLY freak someone out with this!’)
I’m so proud of Lillie. She is such a beautiful, bright light in my life. I can’t believe she’s NINE already!! Although it seems like she’s been in my life always. I can’t remember what it was like to be Lillie-less at all.
